♥ Sunday, August 10, 2008
SM : Din,u interested or not to go overseas attachment?Let me tell u the details first.
U : Sir, I dun tink i wan to go sir.Cos,during the week they will be flying off to Taiwan,i got an important event going on.N i dun wan to miss it.
SM : Ok.I was just asking since u haf a long way to go here.
U : Thank you sir for offering but i guess im not interested la.
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Mrs T : Hey its good to see u again.How r u din?
U : Hi Mrs Tay.. I gt some issue to talk to u about...
Mrs T : Well.. Im all ears..
U : Ive known this gerl. I tried to court her.But fail.Eventually,she choose anuder guy who physically is way way way way much more better than mine.I haf to admit that.Along the way,our frendship develop even tho she is already attached.Both of us getting alot more closer.There are certain times where she admitted that i had made a more impact in her life than anyone else.I know that n im proud to say i was always there when she needs help.I sumtimes had this sense that sumtink wasnt right with her situation n always tried to make a surprise visit or fonecall or msg to help her out in watever prob she is dealing with.There are times where i tried to run away from her..not contacting her n keeping to myself for the sake of forgetting her but i realise i always goes back to her.I know that im not supposed to do that cos of her status.I mean she has a bf n i dun wan to get that close to her.But situation test me.I failed.I admit.I failed to fight against my emotions,my mental strength.Now we are getting a lot closer n felt we are going back to the days whr we used to be.Very close n seeing each other almost everyday.
Mrs T : Relaks din.U ok?If u not,u need not continue...
U : I need to tell u bout dis Mrs Tay.I duno who else to turn to..
Mrs T: Ok Ok.Now slowly carry on.Im listening.
U : We had been xchanging msgs.Msgs which are hopeful to one anuder.Especially me.N theres one msg i cant belive she actuali msg me.Ending with " u've had enuf heartache..Ive had enuf headache " What is she trying to sae to me ma'am?She noes ive been so called hurt everytime she gave me those msgs.N she kept doing so.Y must she do this to me ma'am?Y must i be the one suffering after ive done all the sacrifices to make that friendship turn to a relationship?All ma'am ALL!I sacrifice all my time n money n effort n everything but in the end it bites me back!Is it because of my physical appearance?Cant people see thru it?How serius n how important it means to me than anything else?It had not happen once!She even had the cheek to advice me but one thing definitely is that she is also doing the same thing to me.They left me for no good reason.
Mrs T : Who is they din?What u mean by no good reason?
U : She could not answer me y she chose that guy instead of me.Never will she be able to answer to me.Im proud n confident to say i have done things to her which no other guys are able to do n will able to do.Not even the current guy.
Mrs T : Ok.So wat makes so angry?Or maybe sad?
U : Shes gona get engage.N she wants me to attend it.
Mrs T : So do u want to go?
U : (kept quiet)
Mrs T : Its ok if u dun wan to go din.No one is forcing u.Right?Of course we will feel that its a fren's engagement n we need to attend.But still the decision is urs rightfully.Now i want u to go to the toilet,wash up n we continue after this.
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I cant really remember the exact continuation of the session.But neverthelessmthere are some word that i m still pondering.Examples :
Mrs T : We must remember that marriage is a lifetime thing.Wat makes u think that she will still be who she is 5 years down the road?Or u'll b who u still are 5 years down the road?Everyone changes at the same rate our heart is pumping.Till it stop completely than changes doesnt takes place.Be thankful it hapen nows than later..How long more do u still haf to take it?
Mrs T : Maybe u r not that good for her.Maybe u are too good for her.OR maybe its just that she doesnt deserved to be urs?Do u know?U dun..
Mrs Tay : Everyone has a bad day.I admit.How serious it is,only the individual can tell.Only the individual can feel,Only the individual can explained.But still,always remember,happiness will still come by no matter what.How long it will stay with you depends on how u control ur movements,music,colourfulness of ur day.The Earth doesnt rain all years n doesnt shines all day.Katrina doesnt come once a week.Tsunami doesnt occur everyday.Trust Me.Cherish this short stop-over as hard as u can.Cos once its gone..u can never get it back.
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Those above is the conversation i had during that period whr things went against me all the time. Next..Conversation with mom at the night of 070808...
I : Aik..Nari alik..Hmm da siap2 lom untuk bsok?
U : Ape yg ibuk mepek?Org tk pegi pon.
I : Asl lak tknk pegi?Tk baik tk pegi.Kan kawan awak tu.
U : Org tk sanggup lah nk pegi buk.
I : Udyn to rela la idah da nk tunang.Kan ibuk da kate.
U : Ok ok ibuk.Org da puas buk sakit hati.Org tk nk lagik nangis,sedih2.
I : Ibuk fhm perasaan ko.Pegilah.Mungkin itu kali terakhir ko tgk de udyn..ok?
U : (Kept quiet)
Soon i gg out..
I : Nk ke maner tuh?Pakai lah sesuai skit.
U : Buk,org tk g lah.Org ade better things to do mom.
I : Ape yg lebih penting dari itu?
U : Menjage hati dan perasaan udyn..Itu yang lebih penting ibuk.Org mintak diri dulu k ibuk.
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Yesterday n today seem very fun.Two days straight of escort.One at Bukit Panjang the other at Bukit Merah.Luckily no one followed me cos it was raining very heavily n there were a lot of delayed in the escort.Thankfully it rained only on Sunday. Below are the escorts pics... :
Qirana&Havana 090808
I forgot the name of this design.Kakak n Yan..Shuld u remember tagged it down k?
Before the Escort on the 100808
After the Escort on 100808
We R Havana!
I watched firewerks alone on Sat.At Singapore Indoor Stadium.I was really hoping u wud be there n share the moments with me.Was asking myself..Will u be dere?Will u come?Or worst..
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Qirana&Havana 090808
I forgot the name of this design.Kakak n Yan..Shuld u remember tagged it down k?
Before the Escort on the 100808
After the Escort on 100808
We R Havana!I watched firewerks alone on Sat.At Singapore Indoor Stadium.I was really hoping u wud be there n share the moments with me.Was asking myself..Will u be dere?Will u come?Or worst..
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My Heart Stop Beating @ 4:14 AM
