Watch the movie pls. And Since u said u were connected to the movie, pls be connected again.

Sorry is never gona be enough. I have to tell u that. But It doesnt take away the mark u left in my past. It will still be in the past. And i want to leave it there. I dun want to review, re-think.

I dun wan to say sorry anymore. neither do i want u to say it. let it be. remembered i told ya i can still be ur fren but things will never be the same? i hope u take it seriously back then.

take care and good night.

.Ouh Gosh...

.I just want to wish...

.I have never love anyone else except for u...

.Today marks a special day...
.For a special someone...
.So here's a special entry.
.Just for you...

.One fine day...
.U found ur true love...
.And thus marriage comes...
.Soon its kids...
.Now that u have four...
.I hope its been a great journey thus far...

.Dear you...
.I apologise for all my wrongdoings ive done...
.Towards you for the past 23 years...
.I know ive not been the best...
.In the family...
.I realised in this stage how much ive hurt you...
.The many times i made u angry...
.Frustrated...
.Upset...
.The many times i dissapointed u...
.From primary...
.To secondary...
.Then tertiary...
.Even when i reach my early-20s...
.And now...
.Today...

.No matter what i did...
.Ur always there for me...
.U would give me word of advice...
.Tho many a times i choose not to listen to u...
.U gave me encouragement...
.U gave me strength...
.Despite all that ive given u is the opposite...
.U never gave up on me...

.U deserve this day...
.And thus this entry is specially for u....
.Happy birthday to u...
.I love you very much...
.I have never say such things to u directly...
.Cos to me im ashamed...
.To do so...
.But im doin it here and now...
.For i want my circle of frens to know...
.Wat a great mother i have...
.And how im proud to have a mother like you...
.U are the best...
.And i love you for who u are...
.Im sorry i couldnt be there with u...
.On your special day...
.But i promise i'll make it up to u...
.Once im out of rehab...
.And im sure the whole family...
.Will be there too...
.To spent the special occasion...
.Thos it will be alil bit belated...
.But u are worth every minute of it...

.Dear Mom...
.I love you very much... <3<3<3
.Happy belated Birthday to you...
.My prayers are with u...
.I pray for ur good health...
.And many good things to come by ur way...
.Insya-Allah...

.Bila cinta kini...
.Tak lagi bermakna...
.Yang ku rasa kini...
.Hanyalah nestapa...
.Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu...

.Dulu kau tawarkan ...
.Manisnya janjimu...
.Yang ku sambut itu...
.Dengan segenap hatiku...
.Bila engkau pergi...
.Tinggalkanku...

.Hilangnya cintamu...
.Menusuk hatiku...
.Ternyata memilih...
.Cinta yang fana...

.Perginya dirimu...
.merobek jantungku...
.Hingga ku terjatuh...
.Dalam harapan...

.Ku sebut namamu...
.Di setiap doaku...
.Bangkitkan setiap...
.Kenangan tentangmu...
.Yang ku dapat...
.Hanyalah...
.Bayangmu...

.Hilangnya cintamu...
.Menusuk hatiku...
.Hingga ku memilih...
.Cinta yang fana...

.Perginya dirimu...
.Merobek jantungku...
.Hinggaku terjatuh...
.Dalam harapan...

~Hope u read this~
.I just finish watching a movie...
.On youtube...
.Title : Lagenda Budak Setan...
.A very touching story...
.And i admit this is the first time...
.I shed tears publicly...
.As in not at home...
.Neither in my room...
.Therefore its public...

.As the story rolls on...
.I felt every pain and joy...
.The story has to offer in this movie...
.Kasyah...
.A University student...
.A notorious one...
.Prank is his game...
.But he became...
.A man who change for the better...
.After he succeed in one of his naughty pranks...
.Towards his junior, Ayu...
.And it nearly killed her...

.Ayu...
.A student who enrolled...
.To get away from her past lover,Azmi...
.Only to get entangled with Kasyah...
.And fell in love...
.And their journey begins...

.It struck me when the story showed...
.The sincerity and appreciation...
.Kasyah had for Ayu...
.For its his love for...
.That kept him gg...
.For its her wish to see him succeed...
.In his studies...
.That kept him focus on completing...
.His studies and final project...

.His strong love for her...
.Never did it change even...
.When he could only see her a year later...
.When all he has was her little diary...
.When he got to know...
.She was married...
.All he ever cared was about her...
.All his sacrifices just to get his dream girl....

.As they go on...
.Many a times...
.Bad things happen one after another...
.Ayu got plastic surgery...
.Then Ayu lost her memory...
.Then lastly...
.Ayu couldnt be save...
.After a delivery gone bad...

.I felt a sharp pain piercing through the lead actor...
.As if it was me...
.My life...
.Slowly as he sat by her grave...
.He showed great strength and determination...
.And i admire him for that...
.Even though its just a story...
.I felt it throughout the whole movie clip...

.I read the lyrics...
.I listen to the melody...
.The movie setup...
.The storyline...
.And the characters...
.It suits me...
.Everything...
.The past haunts me back...
.I wana say...
.It hurts...
.Still...

-I want to watch it again...-

.Read the below extract...
.Somehow it opens a lil bit in me...
.Though i agree to a certain extend...
.I cant explain why i have a lil disagreement...
.To the whole extract...
.So if u wish to understand...
.Here it is...
.The Story Of The Lighthouse

True love--that is, unconditional love--is such a puzzle for so many of us. We give it names like agape or grace, and think it is reserved only for a certain few or that it is so rare that we have little hope of ever finding it.

Yet true love displays many of the same characteristics as the lighthouse, which is neither rare nor all that hard to locate.

Indeed, the lighthouse nearly always stands on an elevated promontory, deliberately exposed to all on sea and land. Everyone is supposed to see (and hear) the lighthouse; otherwise it could not fulfill its purpose.

The mission of the lighthouse is to guide us through perils. Night and day, in any kind of weather, its steady light rotates in every direction--360 degrees--illuminating the safe harbor to travelers on sea and land. When fog shrouds its beacon, the lighthouse still shines and adds a loud horn to make sure all those within its range get the message.

Notice a few things about the lighthouse. First, its beam falls on everyone alike. Pilgrim or pirate, saint or sinner, it does not concern the lighthouse. Its rays are available equally to all, without any kind of condition or limitation. The only step they need take is to keep open their eyes (and sometimes ears). It is always their choice.

Second, the lighthouse does not demand that travelers pay heed to its warning. It does not uproot itself, wade out into the ocean, take a ship by the prow, and insist that the vessel steer toward safety. The lighthouse, by its very nature, sets the example of the "tough love" that respects others' free will to follow their own spiritual paths.

Even if a million ships pass by without attending to the lighthouse, it does not become discouraged or start to think that there is no value to its purpose. It keeps shining its light because eventually, someone will notice and will avoid danger thanks to its illumination. That is true faith.

Third, the most brilliant part of its own light falls on the lighthouse itself, demonstrating that light--and love--are a two-way street, to the benefit of both the recipient and the giver. This is perhaps the hardest lesson of the lighthouse--that giving unconditional love (light) to others is not meant to be a painful sacrifice. We deserve to receive as much love as we lavish on others.

So what does the lighthouse teach us about true love? That we all deserve it, no matter who we are or what we have done. That we cannot force our love/light on others because doing so violates their free will. As puzzling as it may seem, others have the right to reject our light/love. And, last but by no means least, that we merit our light/love as much as anyone else to whom we give it.

These are deceptively simple lessons. Simple in this case should not be equated with easy. Most of us have a tough time understanding these lighthouse teachings at even the most basic level. We hoard our love and refuse to give it to certain people or groups. We foolishly rush in where angels (lighthouses) fear to tread because we lack faith in others' free will and thus are certain we know best for them. Or we try desperately to give love while insisting that we are not worthy of it, and giving then hurts because our own cup of love is bone dry.

Yet true love--lighthouse love, unconditional love--is the simplest of all love. Perhaps that is precisely why we don't get it. We're so accustomed to complexity that we discount the validity of anything so utterly simple.

Since complexity doesn't seem to be working for us, why not give simplicity a go? Let's simplify our love and look to the lighthouse as the example of how true love really works for others--and for us.

♥ Romance