Well.. i woke up wif no reply at all frm her. I guess... She had made her statement now. wif wat is happening now. i juz hope n pray 4 d bes now. n watever happens, happens.

I had a bit of difficulty waking up dis morning. Tinkin bout wat has happen. Also mayb bcos i dun haf enuf sleep afte i took quite a long time uodating dear diari. She d onli tink i could turn to wen im down or up. She ha alwaes been dere for me. sori if i made u look bad starting frm todae. But dun wori, i will get u a new cover. I dun tink i wan dat pics no more.. Its useless. I din wait for mum or dad to wake up. Neither grandma. I straightaway went to d toilet, bathe n get out of d hse. Did wat im supposed to do n update dis as i just cam back frm prayers n d rest away on lunch.

Fine. Tink n sae wat u want. I dun need ur sympathy n concern no more. i dun yearn it no more. At a certain point wen i tink i really nd dat concern n u by my side, u were askin me to find sumone else. N now, afte u so-called found out bout my true color, u wanna show me ur attitude. Keep it. i dun wana look at it also. Sori. But forgetting u n no longer cntcting u was d best way for us. Y admit love wen everytink has turn sour? y? it doesnt mean a tink now. Haiz. N u haf dis habit askin for forgiveness but doin it again. pls. Do sumtink bout dat olrite..

I reach hm at bout 6.55 afte werk cos i met idah to borrow her camera. Haha Still haven get to try it yet. havent buy d batt. Fine. its been quite q while since i meet her lah. n she is sick. Hahaha. go n eat ur medicine aite n haf plenty of rest. I caught hold of her for lyk 30 mins n talk n tell her wat is playing on my mind. Guess wat, shes givin me advices!!! Wow. Looks like i will b her mentee ok mentor..? Wen i was about to go off frm dere, i meet fairuz. My sec skool fren. Hes bro is sooo damn cute n looks exactly like him. Haha. Left-legged freak. Very talented in soocer play again together wif him one dae. Hes currently in a division 3 team i tink. Well, all d bes den.

Once i reached home i been tryin to get coverage of d Singapore-Iraq game. I was realy hoping for Singapore to win n i gave my support 100percent. But wen i read d news todae, dey wer knocked out after gg dwn 4-2. Damn. Nvmd. deres still other oppurtunities. Congrats singapore for making it dis far. Den i wanted to watch d england-croatia match. Lucky for me, i din cos england loss, for d first time under mcclaren 2-0.. haha. Hmm no comments bout dat cos ive been askin myself can dey win? i dun tink so. I dun have dat faith for yesterdae's game afte watching d macedonia-england game. Rubbish. Putting dat aside. At nite, went to hafiz's cribs to check out his room.. Haha. Quite ok but can still b improve. I noe it. Jus dat hes plain lazy to do it properly. Complete it soon bro. Den proceed down n meet d gengs.. Hahaha.. Lepaks until late. Laughing n talking nutink but jokes n stupid stuff hafiz made during prac 8. Hahahaha.

I slept at arnd 3 plus afte completing my diari n a short conversation wif a fren. Cried n battered n down n im sori diari for wat happen to u. I hope u understand. Its been two nite dat i cry myself to sleep. Kentalkn? Hello.. i mean i too haf feelings. Called me wat u wan. Cos u guys r too egoistic n hard-hearted!!!

-Amalina will b very dissapointed wif me. With how im copin after her lost. n Taking it in my stride. I duno dear. I noe u can hear me sae dis. i Noe ur reading watever im typing here though ur in d other world. I miss u soo much. I wanted ur console. im craving for ur hug n kisses. Im craving for ur shoulders n cheeks. Ur smooth complextion n warm hug is dose dat made me feel secure wen im insecure. Y did u leave me first without leaving anyting? How m i supposed to b ready for it wen u din tell me earlier ur suffering cancer..? U r d meanest creature on earth!!!!!! But i dun care. I still wan u by my side. Im glad ur happy dere. N i hope my doa is enuf to lighten ur grave. Lin Dear, pls forgive me. I really2 miss u. I cant help it. Come in my dreams again if possible...-

Even if i move on, u will always b in my heart n specially placed whr no one will b able to take u out of dere. I promise u. Even if i do get a replacement. Which i tink u will agree to it. I love u Lin.. I really do. Come to me if u can. i dread for u..


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