Hmm im a lil bit disturb. By a few events n hapenning around me.. by how ppl took charge of decisions. Using feelings n hearts instead of brains n logic. Y? does it really haf to fall apart? Must the line be cut due to individuals ego n not tink bout how long d line was created for it to b cut? Guys.. we are reaching d prime of our teenage years. N u guys still dun wan to change urself n expect situation to go in ur favour? Com'on..

Hmm ive not been bloggin cos ive been updating my dear diari in werkplace ever snce i bought her last week. N onli 5 daes, i nearly covered 40 pages of life eye-opener for me. which is like a lot. N i dun leave space n my handwriting is small. I dun get it. I mean.. Do i haf to generalise human beings as "Contradictors"?

Ive been noeing u for nearky 13 yrs NURASHIKIN. N for d past 3 yrs u were wif him. N dose patch-break stuff, fights, cries, "cant-forget-him situation", still waiting for him.. N now u made a conclusion dat u regretted being wif him? HELLO!!!! ur trying to put d blame on situation dat tinks between u n him turn out dis way.. Isnt it? N u promised me to at least stay single for some time.. But now? U wan me to meet HIM.. N get to noe him. N all dis while, u r already attached. or mayb not.. i dun no. But i ASSUME u r. N shuld it b true, y? I tot u said u r sick n tired of all dis games of MEN. But u dive into d pool full of sharks again. N its like straight-away. Wat is dis? i mean, arent u deceiving urself? Not ppl.. But i do m happy for u if wat ur doin now makes u happy. But im still puzzled. [Contradicting..]

MUHD HAFIZ. I cant believe u. Again uve been lying to me. Y? R u scared i would conterpart wif dat guy n played u out? Haf i ever do dat to u? Mayb u dun remember but u did a few times to me. Or it might b dat u noe n u feel guilty n suddenly remember bout dis werd called KARMA n since dat guilty feeling gets d better of u u decide to stay away from me? Ur scared dat i will one dae bring dat guy to whr u n she is n den makes tinks worst for u? HUH?!! Dis shows one tink boy.. U dun trust me at all. U dun remember who i m do u. N if u r treat me only as a fren den im dissapointed my fren. I dun wan to believe wat ppl sae bout u. I wan to make my own impression bout u fren. I wan to prove to ppl dat dey r wrong all dis while. But wif tinks gg like dis, i tink dey r proving me wrong. N im dissapinted. Y must u follow ur ego all dis while? Y must u do dat?Wats gona happen to our deal n "promise" bout being single until our R1 comes? N u still denying it.. Stil.. Its been 2 months rite? Y din u trust me? Y cant u just tell me dat. Just take a second to realised who haf been dere for u wen u need somebody? Wen u r bored n wanted a company? I just wan u to tink. Realised n look at urself into d mirror. Pls. Dun make situation worst. I love u n pls.. Dun let dat gerl gets d better of u.. [Contradicting..]

INDRA SUSILA DEWI. Dun let me call u dat name. I hate to use it ok. But u have been pushing me n my patience is gettin thinner n thinner.. Now i wan to noe d real reason y u leave him..? Is he really at fault? Huh? U have been unfaithful all dis while n u wan to end it like dat? Y? becos he doesnt haf a bike? To transport u from one place to another? But u werent like dis b4. U dun seem to care bout bikes. Hmm mayb u got d thrill afta da ride at east coast wif Rabbiah's fren n got caught by traffic police? N subsequent rides wif Arif n some oder mat's bike? u r exposing urself. ok fine. If not den y din u get some1 else who doesnt posesses a bike or transport? Y must it b him? Y not me.. OK. Wat if he doesnt has a bike n wadi has. Would u still go wif him? or rather stay wif Wadi n make "KESETIAAN"[truthfulness] as ur excuse? Y? Y must u make ppl haf speculations n assumptions bout u?
U like to do dat huh.. Fine. Since dats ur case den dun scold me saying ur d type hu go for money, Cars n bikes. Rite? Pure B***H. Remember.. U just destroy some1's life n inner life. He stop school, stayed at nite n early morning just to spend time wif u. He waited for u wen u said ur coming down but in d end sleep at hm. N while stayed over wif u at d RC, u slept n idn let him sleep.. How selfish can u b huh. N now u left him just like dat.. wif a reason dat actually shuld b called, EXCUSE! N like 1987 said in ur taggy.. 'stop d crap before d crap gets back at u'. N u haf d cheek to sae 1987 was me.. I dun haf time to get involved in all dis. All im doin now is just letting it out. Think again for all ur actions. N dose in ur blog. Dun do d same tink u did to my fren to HIM. cos if u do, i promise u dis time i wont keep quiet. U lied to 2 ppl who used to b dere wif u n Wadi.. n one of dem is sooooo hugely thankful for tellin him which bastards did dat to his bike.

MUHAMMAD WADI. I gt nutink much to sae bout u. Just dun do wat u have been doin all dis while.. Its unhealthy. Takecare of urself aite.

I will just post d weekend entry maybe tomorow or dae after.. I just wan to let it out. cos i have been reading deir entries n its sooo sickening.. We could have been d 5 PIs.. But i tink.. its useless. F*** Off bitches n bastards.. I HATE YOU GUYS!!!!

♥ Romance