Exactly dis date 2112?? will b my marriage date.But d year is stil under consideration.Due to some criteria b4 i get married lah.Firstly,enuf of enjoying myself.Secondly,my $10k excluding my dear R1[which means about $30k in my bank total].Thirdly,afta i discover if im responsible enuf to b a husband n a father.N lastly,KARTINI!!Wen Will You Sae YES???!!!

Now, last weekend was a bit down for me. I mean it was supposed to b our last match of dis yr but we ruin it. N ending it on a high note was our aim. But certain tings din go our way. Weather, pitch n timing. It was raining sooo heavily n dat causes d pitch to b waterlog n muddy at d same time. We were in a pig sty chasing one pathetic ball n making a fool of ourself. Thus dat stop us from playing our smooth fast-pace passing football. Urgh! A lot of times we were under pressure by veterans who knew d game more den we do. But we din give up hope. Several times we attack n look dangerous in d final third of d pitch but we just couldnt convert d chances. Dat made me very upset n s stand-in captain, i couldnt do much bout my backline too. Captain n sweeper Muhd Hafiz was away on a trip n we miss him badly behind.Dats wat timing has done for us. A lot of players are away on trips n dat make our job more difficult. N to b a goal down in d first 10 mins after holding on to waves of attack by d opposition n losing d ball due to d waters n uncomposed players was a suicide. D smoothness n strengh were dere n im very dissapointed wif d play but not d players n fighting spirit. Yes. we lost to a better team n d scoreline was bad either. 4-1.Overall, we did learn sumtink..we can mess wif d best.Big time.

Yah.Was taking public transport dese few daes to werk due to d rain n it quite a fun.BUt i was late todae n tot of takin d bike but i cant s my number plate drop somewhere on d road.Still need to make it n i shuld b collectin it tomorrow afternon.Hmm i meet sumone lah yeaterdae n she is sooo pretty n cute.N d big deal is, ive never seen her b4 in my whole life living in Simei.Hehe.Yah a moment of folly.Den my hse finally has internet now but d connection is slow cos my desktop is 7 years old n we din upgrade or change d speed.So yah.I duno wats got into mom to finally sign up for dat Starhub service n got d laptop.Hmm nevermind.For u guys info,its a bit cold between me n my parents n sister due to some complications at home.Yah so im not talking to dem at d moment.But i dun forget to pray for dad's well being n mom's health too.Also my future nephew/niece.N since i dun wan to worsen d situation,dats y i kept quiet.No one has any idea wat im facing at home.All d comments made by sis n dat stupid attitude of hers.Wen will she go back her home??I will b damn happy if shes gone.So im using my brain n logic to dis situation.Nt heart n feelings n ego.I onli talk to dem wen necessary.But i try my best not to.I noe its a sin but im doin dis not for myself but for d well-being of family members n not try to worsen n tie n relationship.My conscience is clear.

Work has been ok lah for me.Made a new fren,Dawn who is also a temp staff for me.N both Muhd Hafiz N Aisyah is back in Singapore after deir trip to Malaysia.N dis weekend,its my turn to haf my share of relaxation.I wanted to take my mind of my personal stuff n rest my leg.Been down wif hamstrings n suspected ligament tear in my left leg.Hmm but i haf to sacrifice my party wif frens dis christmas.Im not celebrating christmas but its just my normal weekend partyn some of my frens wanted me to join dem.Ok fine.I go for d sake of party n not celebrating christmas.Hmm n deir outing dis week would b fun lah.D plan was Sentosa in d morning for a swim.Den to Vivocity for lunch n shopping n mayb Movie..Den at nite,its party time!!Hehe.Yup Clubbing!Hmm hows dat for d weekend?Hehe.Yah n frens.Wait.Do i haf dem?Hmm well some of dem.Dey r doin fine.But i duno bout my soccermates.Ridhwan has got a job n im happy for him.Idah has been smiling all dis while.Wonder y shes not picking up my calls todae.Hmm tido kot.Muhd Hafiz..I hate u Bastard.Wahahaha.Kidding.N cos of u i m being a contradictor.Damn u.Noor Shahidah,i hope ur doin fine all dis while[dak dak!!]Shikin, u r forgiven.N take time to heal pls.No rush.Dere no point gettin to a relationship wif a broken heart.Its like walking up d stairs wen both ur legs are injured. Ok? D rest, pls take good care of urselves aite.

*D: Hey.. wat r u doin?
A: Wat r u doin here.. Ur not supposed to b here. Go Away.
D: U still havent forgive me for wat i did to u dun ya?
A: [Staring wif tears in her eyes..]
D: Y? Y cant we b like before..?Im just askin u to forgif me.Dats all.We can start a new..If u gif us d chance again.Pls..
A: [opening up her arms.. n im walking towards her.] I miss u sooo much.y must u lie to me?I tot u were sumbody who will change it,Change dat.But y?N how do u expect me to forgive u?I had enuf.Pls...
[But she is getting futher n futher away n her arms in openin wider n wider n wider. wait for me pls.Im coming..]
D: Its a moment of stupidity.I din wan u to look down on me.I din wan u to tink im useless.I dun wan to lose u.Pls.Dun go.Y r u goin far away?
A: Its not me.Its u.Y r u leaving me?Y?dun u wan to b in my arms?Ur d only one i wanted to hug.Remember d outing wif Nana at esplanade.U capture my smile while im dreaming n i hate u for dat cos..U took away my heart too.Y r u goin away..?
D: No im not. No im not..I will never run away..Stop pls..STOP!![Find myself running towards her.. BUt..]Wait pls..Wait..[im in tears..]Wait.. NOOOO!!!!!!!!
[I found myself in n empty room..Wif cupboards n posters n cups..Money n treasure..I dun wan all dat.Whr is she?Den i remembered..Im awake,wif tears in my eyes n rolling down.I touch it.Cold.I turn..Its 2am.. 211206]*

I haf no explanation to wat happen up dere.Yesh.Gosh..I havent packed my bag yet.N im hopin to do so.Planning to take time off later todae.So i can do my errands n stuff.Also get back some sleep.Dere might b a meeting tonite wif coach.But dat too is not confirm.Hais.Life.Im looking forward for dis trip.N if possible,i dun feel like comin back..Hmm.Alrite guys.I wont b bloggin any sooner.Most probably next week after i come back.Take care everybody!Have a great weekend!


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