Firstly, Selamat Hari Raye Aidiladha to all muslims around d world.Secondly,i really had a bad week dis week.Haiz.though d KL trip is d only tink dat make me smile.N of course todae news of making it to the squad.But dat too did bring some negatives tots too.Its selection n some of whom i expect to make d cut didnt make it.N was quite dissapointed in dat n demselves too for dat negative attitude on n off d pitch.Cos dey din take d chance to impress d coach.N dat last meeting i had wif Hafiz n dat gerl[thirdly]..was makin me tink..n realise..i was d biggest contradictor in my life.Lastly,d memories of me n that special sumone.Dere n den,Esplanade.But first, let me take it back to yesterdae..or perhaps, 2 daes ago.

I was playing soccer at Tampines Multi-Purposes Court til bout 10pm.Den was sitting down wif previous school n soccer mates.Was just talking at d court itself.Den i decided to go to 7-11 just nearby.I was about to buy sum drinks wen i noticed a familiar face.She din noticed me in d first place lah but i was certain to find out who she is.I look at d name tag.Yes its her.I approach her.She was reluctant to look at first lah but wen she does,"wat r u doin here?".Haha.Its Kak Sue.My fren's cuzzin.I din noe she was werking dere lah but it was quite a shocked to find out.Futhermore,my fren's ex was werking dere too n i cant belive dat dey r actually werking dere together.N wen i asked her,she was like"isnt dat my cuzzin's ex?" I was amazed lah at it cos she was fine wif dat.Hehe. Den i sat dere for a while more b4 gg back home at around 12.30.Was a bit nervous for d next dae's result.

Now..I need u ppl's help.Dose who r reading dis.Do i really look like chinese?Cos i actually got approach by two very preety,cute,short,white,sexy,preety,preety n preety chinese gerls asking me for... LIGHTER! N do i also look like a smoker?Hehe[tag it down on dear taggy].N dey r really,really awesome.One of dem asked me in chinese n wen i answer dem in english saying im malay, d oder one burst into laughter.Dey really really tot i was a chinese boy.N dey still cant believe it lah.I got to noe d one who asked me for it only.N she is one hot chinese babe.If im not wrong, she's Shermaine.But dat not d main prob.D main tink is,do i really look like chines on first impression?Dis is not d first time im facing dis prob.N wat shuld i do to make me look more 'malay?' Weehee.Tag it down guys.Dis will b very interesting.

Yah.Back to wat "make" my dae.N week.I got laid down from my previous job n dats fine to me.I manage to get over it along wif d consequences too.But dat makes me worry one tink.I had a lot of tinks to settle by...Yesterdae n still not able to do so.I need a lil bit more time.N looking for jobs is a lil bit late cos of d long weekend.Nevermind.Den,todae.Results.Want me to name d squad?I dun.Cos it makes me sick.Now im like wondering if we could go all d way in dis season n b divison Champions.Pressure is really on me n four oder players cos d coach wanted to save his ass from getting shouted at from our sponsors which is...His CEO!!N im afraid to b blowing up n not able to concentrate n focus.Worst, im d Vice-Captain which i really hate.I hate holding on to a post where it will make me self-destruct.Ergh.But coach wont listen.Ego.Now dat one aim ios gone,winning d division s Champions will b next in my wishlist.At least at d moment for d new year.Another tink bout dis is, we had several meetings b4 n has actually decided on our final team to go in to dis League.But everytink went down d drain.Cos he din not go as planned.N d meeting was like not a meeting at all!Every one was late n dat actually shows d attitude n discipline of d players.It suck.Really really suck!Damn.Dat adds up to d miserable dae i had.N its eve to Hari Raye Haji.Watver.N i tot it was gg to end but it soon get worst.

Contradictor.Dat is d werd i love nowadays.N i tink i love it cos..Im one.Yes.I cant believe.I meet up wif Hafiz still noeing hes wif indra.But i still meet him.Maybe becos i dun wan to accept d fact dat dey r together.Cos in me,i kept sayin to myself dat dey r still frens n dat he will not lie to me.I really took his werds.Hes my besttie so y shuldnt i believe him rite?But it happen rite in front of my eyes.Kissing n cuddling n huggin..I cant stand it.N i dun no y.I noe d main stuff but im not doin anitink to change it nor anitink like dat.N she is doin dat to my bestfren who promise me we will only b attached wen R1 comes into our lives.N im beginin to tink bout all d tinks ppl used to sae bout him.N im upset too bout it.I mean ppl talking bout my besttie.But d fact of d matter is,wat dey r saying is true.In fact i cant believe y dis time i could not b able to make my own conclusion n decision.N i realised dat she is really a person who goes after property.N seeing dem doin dat wen dey declare demselves as only frens makes me sick.I mean,if its really true dey r frens,y dun she do d same tink to me too?or some oder male frens who she haves?Wat she n him tinks im stupid?I really hate d sight of her n im getting frustrated at all dis.But y m i still wif dem?Well mayb i just need his company n she just gets in d way..Or mayb im a hypocrite cum contradictor in reality?I need time...For my own ans.

Esplanade.Dere was love songs playing as background s i was sittin down by d riverside.Exactly d same spot whr she sat down...daydream n i manage to make her smile n captured dat.Haiz.Its never ending..I really miss her.But will i b able to put d past behind n start afresh?Wont it b a lil bit akward cos she already noe dat i cheated on her once?Will she b able to gof me d chance i needed n change d impression n perpestive she got bout me not long ago?A lot of question but very lil clues wat more...answers.Haiz.

Good nite everyone... or perhaps..Morning.


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